故事

人的一生總要去寫許多不知結局的故事。

有的故事可以順利完成，而有的故事或許將永遠都是一種殘缺。

完美的結局是我們搏擊風雨的見證，也是我們永久的期待，

然而生活並不像我們所想像的那樣美好，既然有年輕，也必然有衰老。

信任

Ryan 黄威仁 Honestly, please tell me. Who am i to you? Don't act like u don't even know what I'm saying or asking. is all this while u tell me that u went for discussion really an discussion? Please tell me and let me had my respect or last pride. Ryan 黄威仁 i had no regret for all this while. Im sincerely giving all myself to you. But if u couldn't at lease assure my appearance in the public at least u let me know what u think and your full honesty. That'll feed my trust and confident with u.

[29/09 12:50 AM] Shiiny: But it seem like i wan to talk to you, you macam tidak apa. I know it the moment u tell me "just go back home." U just ignore the message about i wan you tonight. I know I'm not that important to you. But i don't know that I'm worthless until a extend u won't even bother. I do felt like shit... 

I know u do have problem to attend, i didn't force u to be into relationship. I just wan assurance. You know? But u seem like u don't know every single thing. U only wan happiness and joy every moment. U just can't accept the ugly truth. I don't know all this while am i a fool in front of u? someone a backup plan to u?

[29/09 8:20 AM] Ryan 黄威仁: 

Well first of all..I've decided to meet u up around 10..but called u both failed to answer..msg both noreply..i duno wat is goin on with u both to do so . thought u asleep or something..but in d end i receive ur msg at 1230am..means js got home right? 1) Sure definitely special to me compared to other girls..if not i wont bring u bk to my family..everywher i go..i brought u along..i could hv just bring diffrent girls right?even go for trip.but why?think bout that. 2) After lately some incident happen i found out something bout u..that hold.my.feeling back a lil.. 3) U didn force me into relationship?well obviously cuz ure d type very 急性..everything want fast .u js cant wait to hv a status. Well for my side is not the right timing yet.i tengah searching for 完美的 relationship..nt 拍散拖. 4) U trust me all these while?if nt u wont say such thing as "all these while u goin discussion or stuff is it really a discussion or do something else"..this is stupid!u acting generously that u trust me..but actually ure nt. 5) I appreciated your love n care towards me too..u think i cant feel it?obviously eveyone in the group or my fb ppl also can see u n i got something on already lo..even my girls fren also pm me or wat n say congrats.u think i still hv market out there to flirt?come on la..alot of them back off after i celebrated ur bday in black market. [29/09 8:23 AM] Ryan 黄威仁: 

I js hate the way u act bisu infront of me..instead of confront me..u choose to type. If u talk to me.face to face would b good n settle on d spot. U duno how to 解决问题 [29/09 8:24 AM] Ryan 黄威仁: 

My feeling towards u is increasing u know that?just u like to mess thing up

1. If u care enough u will come to my condo and wait to clarify. I told ui need a time of my own to clear my thinking. Trust is not as simple as what u said. It need honesty and confident to feed on it. (Did u feed it, before u question) Im home much more earlier, just dont know how to face u, i do feel guilty to question or doubt on you like this. (But i had to ask instate of guessing and finding excuss) 1. Remember u told me once it doesn't mean anything for bring me along with family, u brought some also. (But i do feel special) 2. What u found and hold ur feeling back? ( no wonder i felt insure ) Y dont u confront me? we both are the same, gather up things and burst up. (I choose to settle and talk thing out, but u just reply me u are home very tired) 3. My dear Ryan, Please tell me if im very rush (almost 1 year) its very normal? Or abnormal? Do u know how awkward i felt when u cant even assure who am i to u? I was like a "pui chor girl" follow u anyway and everywhere just feed by ur money but worst then a prostitution. (Atlease they know where the stand and who they are). 4. Like i said, trust need something to feed on it, did u ever ask ur self y i had trusted u for almost 1 year, y did i suddenly confront u with this? (Instate of explain or comfort me, u make it as it is my fault for no longer blindly trust u) its being fair? 5. Well... im glad to know that. 6. This is the first time i felt like thinking it silence and clear my tot out. I wan to be rational. I ask u first to come, but u choose not. (Even at the end u said u wanna come, cuz u started to felt the seriousness). If for this pass year u wont bother to call up. 7. I wan to hold on and grab it tider & u always puss me backwards. Do u know that? Thats why i reacted like(lack of trust).

心中有一根刺

今天看到了一堆不应该看的照片。

我非常的彷徨和不爽，

但我在想那个是他的过去式，

我也有我的过去式，

我只是不爽而已，我原谅了他，

希望以后不要再看到这样的照片了。

炸弹

就那简单的几句话和那两个钟头。
就种下一个炸弹在我心中，
但我还是想相信我的直觉，
我想给你和我一个机会。

我想我中毒了，
你为什么还不接受我？
你是不是当我是胚胎？
你到底爱不爱我？
我到你对你来说是什么？

现在的我有一点迷糊彷徨，

Setiawan Trip " Love Trip"

My Dear Ryan Jin, 

I'm glad that you wan me to be with you on this family trip~ 

I'm glad to join you and your family member to Pray~

I had bring you officially to meet up my got father, got mother...etc

I had officially being acknowledge by your family as you Girlfriend~

I had tons of feeling to express~ 

But no words can be explain~ 

I'm not sure are you my Mr.Right,

But I'm pretty sure If I wan it to work, It will.

Cause I'm ready for you, And I clearly know that you are not ready for me.

I know you wan to give me your best and every good to me~ 

I know you will and I still have time to wait~ haha

老板~ I Love You~ 

有一種相處是不說話也不會尷尬

曾經我們愛的轟轟烈烈，

現在覺得平淡也很美，

能夠一起開心很簡單，

我們還能一起悲傷更是珍貴。

遇到你之後才知道，

只要有你在身邊我就能微笑，

就算只是一起逛著大賣場，

都能感覺到幸福在圍繞，

原來，安安靜靜的陪伴也這麼美好！

情绪

我們都有情緒，

卻不一定能夠控制，

有時候壞情緒來襲，

會讓我們什麼事都不順心。

當你遇到低潮來襲，

越是抱怨，事情會越難順利，

轉個念頭起身面對，

換個口氣鼓勵自己，

低潮才能被你擊退，

事情才能回到正軌。

Moment like This

~Awesome Feeling~

I love it

好开心哦~

你在我生日那天，陪了我一天半。

也陪了我一夜晚，我陪你看夜球。

我们就这样静静的靠着彼此，做各自的东西。

夜晚的星辰，我们就这样心灵上的满足彼此。

我特别开心是你载我回家的时候，

你尽然不顾你姐姐和姐夫的嘲笑下车抱我才回家~

我好开心，因为你又向我打开了你一道墙。呵呵。

那才是难得的是。你肯承认我在你心中的分量了。

暧昧，情未了

最初，从舒服到好奇再从震撼到吸引。

你的每个举动都深深的影响着我灵魂。

那种心灵上的了解俄和互动，

都深深的打动着我牵动着我。

不需任何语言都能了解彼此。

还记得在Zouk那天晚上我们见面互动。

很神奇的我会让你们陌生人带我上车。

现在回想起来有点胆怯，我这么大胆。

可能命中注定的吧~ 我们的相遇相知。

我们的邂逅就在这晚展开了精彩故事。

还有那一次，你为了陪我在Zouk到凌晨夜晚。

你送我回家，尽然发生车祸还是第一个打给我。

我那时心想惨啦我有没有弄残人家的儿子啦。

到现在当我们说起当时的事都不明白为什么，

你会第一时间打给我，而不是拖车或家人呢。

可能那时的你已经对我芳心暗许了呢~呵呵呵。

过了不久你带我和你姐姐吃饭在“Friday餐厅"。

我有点显得不自在，因为害怕他们不喜欢我。

幸好他们没有反对我这号人物，我有点庆幸。

我开始和你家人来往和每个星期日吃家庭饭。

我们就这样开始了我们的拉扯爱情”暧昧“慢跑。

我非常享受我们之间的那种不透明感”神秘感“。

我觉得我有一种身陷其中但还乐在其中的感觉。

这几个月的摩擦和碰撞让我们走的越来越近了。

将近一年的我们要幸福哦~